002 - You Make Me Crazy

[Erinn Lobdell]

Another day in the game of hell. Seriously,

I hear someone is talking shit about me already <3 :fans, but of course I get all overreacting at the time because I'm sober and well, I cussed out some people. And fuck, I know I shouldn't but I do it anyways because it feels great to! I can't help myself. Some times, people are just idiots. So I leaked a lot of shit, basically everything to Danielle, except a few minor thoughts in my head. So this will either make me or break me. I'm trying to clear my name on the other side but Im selling people in as well. It's fine though, the one they're targeting is the girl that fucked up my untouched name this season. Natalie B Slut! Awful, really.

I told Hunter a lot of shit happening about Natalie and stuff, hopefully give ourselves a great cause. I don't know if I should just be quiet tonight or talk up a storm while everyone is online. I know one thing, I can position myself greatly in this tribe and I hope too. I've started on mission, befriend Jenna. I worked on her a bit yesterday throughout the day and tried the night before. Tonight, I'll try to work on Kim, if she's around but she's basically not. Maybe Lex, but he's the last I wanna work on. he's so two faced, I trip out all the time when I tell him shit!

[Erinn Lobdell]

This challenge can get so annoying, thankfully others have no life like myself so they're making up for my lack of posts during those ungodly hours. I finally got to speak with Brett, if that means anything yet. It was hardly anything but I tried my best to awaken as many potential discussion topics as possible in my PM back to his. See where that gets me, I need to have them comfortable with me! I wish Natalie knew she could be a potential target on their side, so she tries to cause drama and shit <3

[Erinn Lobdell]

I'm not telling her though, someone else has too.

[Erinn Lobdell]

I'm hating on these people right now. Man. I knew it would be full of drama. I remember saying in the last round I was interested in working with Danielle and Kim, but I'm really not. I can't trust them at all and Colleen was extremely right about them. It's okay though because I think they're both voting Natalie tonight, along with Lex and Brett. That's at least four votes onto Natalie, apparently according to Natalie I should be receiving votes, then she went back to saying she's receiving the votes. Huh? Make up your mind slut.

So now all those bitches are trying to vote out Nat and save Brett and Lex together. I think that's royally stupid and told them so. Danielle got all snappy like she's on some Diva PMS Mode, called me melodramatic, saying because I put up a fight about this vote and assume she's not with me, that I'm causing a storm for no reason. That I look stupid when really in the end, they're fucking stupid. I don't believe any of them, I haven't since the beginning. I tried to cause a little division, it could have either bit me or blessed me, I'm not so sure yet.

I just fucking hate them all. ;--; I'm leaving forever after this. I just don't have as much of a tolerance anymore, I can't keep shit in. I start getting really confrontational and shit and it ruins my chances with fooling people.

So now it's mission, get votes onto Brett and off of myself. And Natalie, even though I know she doesn't give two shits about me.

I spoke to Jenna, she's important, considered an extra number in Natalie's eyes but to me, I need Jenna on my side to keep my sanity. She's someone I'm working on more so lately, I really need her trusting me, though I'm not sure if she's falling for the nice girl act. Working it though. Austin is someone really against these two boys, I'm planning on sending him a message. I'm voting Brett tonight, so he better as well. I'll speak to him on AIM, but for now, PM will do.

Colleen is someone I've thrown under the bus multiple times LMAO. So I'm not sure if she'll trust me after everyone tells her shit. Which I'm sure they will. Brett messaged me asking me for an alliance, I have to decline and get him mad at me, which I'm sure he already is. Which is kinda why I'm making the decision to just straight up tell him, yea I don't see the numbers in your favour. Because right now I can't! Either I'm faked into thinking this or it's real. Candey is another, she's my girl but I really need her support tonight to take out Brett and take control of this tribe. Wipe out these pussies. WIPE OUT!