Mneh.

[Parvati Shallow]

Alright. I've gone over how to approach this final TC about a billion times, and I honestly don't think that I'm ever gonna come up with something that I'll be satisfied with.

So, let's talk.

First, off, Anthony. I'd like to address your reply to Misty's question. I don't want a response to this, I'm just sharing my version of the events you describe.

The round that Brenda was sent home, Yau told me that Parvati was going to flip and that she had said a couple of things about me. Most of these things weren't true, like that I couldn't be trusted because I would have voted Yau out in order to prove my loyalty to the alliance of six. I had never said such a thing.

We had asked you repeatedly about Yau, and everybody had assured me that you would vote Yau if it came down to it. So of course I would have said that.

After the Brenda vote, I started to doubt Yau's intentions though, and went to Parvati for two reasons. First of all to see if Yau had played both of us since we both ended up playing our triples, and secondly to see if she was willing to come back to working with her old alliance and save Chelsea. Throughout this conversation, I learned that Yau had not been playing me, that Parvati did tell Yau these lies about me, and that Parvati was willing to oust Yau at some point but wasn't willing to save Chelsea.

Yeah... no. I said I didn't think Chelsea could be saved. I tried talking to Danielle and Heidi about saving her and taking Yau out instead, and both of them flat-out refused. That wasn't me being unwilling, that was me getting shut down. Also, I find it pretty that you took that conversation as a sign that Yau was more trustworthy than me, since I openly admitted that I said the things I said, and, more importantly, that I said them because I believed them to be true.

In fact, that's really been my issue with this game. I feel like I've been lambasted straight to hell and back again, for a lot of stuff that arguably wasn't my fault. I've been bitched out for turning on Brenda and Chelsea, because apparently I should have stuck with them and been ditched later on down the line because they were all orgasmy over you. I've been bitched out for turning on the alliance of six, and believing that Brenda and Chelsea were turning on me. Well, 'scuse me for getting lied to. My bad.

I think what bewilders me the most is that everybody immediately took the fact that I didn't really give half a damn about strategy (or anything else) and used that as an excuse to just treat me like shit. People took a pretty perverse pleasure in letting me know how much I suck and how much they hated me, even though it was hardly news to me. I was fully aware of how badly I sucked, and the fact of that matter is I wasn't even trying not to. Which isn't to say I was useless. Anthony, you bitched about all of the effort you put into challenges. Well, I put in my fair share, and I was certainly more useful than quite a few people on our tribe, but that didn't stop you from calling me worthless after Brenda left. I also took a lot of shit for being a "lying deceiving ****waffle, but in fact, I only ever targetted people who I'd heard were planning on voting for me. Did I make a mistake on that front? Maybe. Again, if I did, it's because people were lying to me, and presenting a logical and rational case that I had no good reason not to believe. Given how little I actually did before I was voted off, the treatment I received in return was pretty damn harsh.

However, I will openly admit that I probably deserve all of the shit I took during my resurrection, (which I didn't ask for, or even want, for the record.) I figured that if I had already suffered through the bitching and insults that I got from everybody assuming I was a psychotic bitch, I wasn't gonna be changing anybody's mind, so I might as well have the fun of actually being one for a while. So I went out there with the express goal of telling as many lies and/or brutal truths as I possibly could within the brief timespan I had. That was essentially trolling on my part, so I totally had that coming to me.

And, really, that's all I have to say. I don't doubt that my little speech will provoke its fair share of eyerolls, and everybody's still gonna think I'm a bitch no matter what. I don't really care, at this point. I retired for a reason.

With regards to the two of you... well, I'm honestly not that interested in asking you guys to vie for my vote, because, quite frankly, I don't think either of you particularly care if you get it.

So, I'd like for you guys to pick a song (you don't have to include a video if you don't want to) for each juror, with a short explanation of why you think it fits them. Also, please promise me that if either of you ever has access to a time machine, you'll go back to August and tell me not to play this damn game.

[Amanda Kimmel]

If somebody builds a time machine, tell me to go back to August too and:
1) Warn me to start the game three weeks later
2) Tell me to do a tribe swap
3) Tell me not to do any rushed replacement challenges

That might solve some problems, Parv <3

[Pimpthony Robinson]

Even though you don't want a response to this, I'll still give my two cents in return just to clarify.

Yeah... no. I said I didn't think Chelsea could be saved. I tried talking to Danielle and Heidi about saving her and taking Yau out instead, and both of them flat-out refused. That wasn't me being unwilling, that was me getting shut down. Also, I find it pretty that you took that conversation as a sign that Yau was more trustworthy than me, since I openly admitted that I said the things I said, and, more importantly, that I said them because I believed them to be true.

My suggestion at that time was either to make sure one of them went, or to make them at least waste some items in the process; but you didn't feel like going balls to the wall to save Chelsea (neither did Misty or Michelle, as it turned out). You're right, the reason was that it might not have been possible, but let me state it differently then. I felt like you weren't willing to do whatever we could to save her. That was what I was looking for at that time and it didn't work, and this was one of the things that caused me to run with what I heard to Yau. Furthermore, yeah, you really came through actually by admitting you had said those things and I appreciated that and it did make you trustworthy at that time in fact. Both you and Yau were open to me at that point; I only said that Yau had been more loyal than you, since I felt betrayed by you when you ousted Brenda.

I also don't recall calling you worthless or useless; I might have been pissed, but I definitely don't recall saying such things about how you performed in the pre-merge challenges. It's been a long game though so I can't say a 100% sure, but I won't deny that you did your fair share; we sat until late night for you searching for puzzle pieces for example, so yeah I wouldn't quite describe your contribution as useless. I'm sorry if I did.

And, ok, since you're asking, you got my promise that if I ever have access to a time machine, I'll tell you not to play. I take it you feel hated, and I'm sorry about that. You made the game a lot harder for me when you made your move. All bitterness aside, that is not necessarily a bad thing and you did make your impact on the game.

I'll do the songs later; either in the next hour or tonight since I'm heading out soon.

[DD]

Before I delve into these good ol' jams, I would like to address this:

I only ever targetted people who I'd heard were planning on voting for me. Did I make a mistake on that front? Maybe. Again, if I did, it's because people were lying to me, and presenting a logical and rational case that I had no good reason not to believe.

I think you gave me a lot of shit for voting you out (and maybe that was you just fulfilling your bitch niche (internal rhyme ftw)) when I was just employing the same strategy you enlisted here. However, that doesn't change what I do feel badly about, and that's lying to you before you were voted out. I do consider you to be a friend, and if that action, in your mind, breaches our friendship, then I'm a shitty friend for doing that to you, even if I don't have the same perception on it. Which leads me to...

With regards to the two of you... well, I'm honestly not that interested in asking you guys to vie for my vote, because, quite frankly, I don't think either of you particularly care if you get it.

I do care about getting your vote actually. I played hard and long enough of this damn game, where despite the asterisk on this game, I would like to win. Furthermore, I'm gonna vie for every vote out here, because it's respectful to you guys as jurors, Amanda, and a good way to get closure on this damn game. Without further ado, here are the songs.

Brenda

Kelis ~ Bossy


The song Bossy is totally fierce, just like Brenda. It's not to say that she is bossy, but it's representative of her HBIC attitude and impression upon others. Plus, all the verses are totally about sex appeal, so yeah, Brenda right hurr.

Chelsea

Lady Gaga ~ Love Game


I had to pick Lady Gaga, since Chels and I were both at the same concert of hers years ago! It's too bad we couldn't've met up then, but it was a ton of fun! I ultimately picked Love Game because I think for Chelsea, these games are about loving her friends and having a good time. And let's be honest, if I had a disco stick, she'd totally go for a ride.

Parvati

Irene Cara ~ Out Here On My Own


I think this song is pretty fitting for you, given its title. I think you were out here on your own most of the time, and part of this song is about being misunderstood. Definitely fits the journey you had in this game.

Misty

Britney Spears ~ Circus


I know how much Misty loves Britney Spears, so this was definitely something I wanted to choose for her. I think Misty really came out as a ringleader and entertainer the round she left. She was throwing things around the entire round to help herself stay. She's a true fighter, and she had all eyes on her for sure.

Austin

ABBA ~ The Winner Takes It All


I think this song is pretty representative of Austin's game. You just have to play your heart out and hope for the best, but ultimately, things aren't always in your control. Lines like "the judges will decide," and "why should I complain?" are characteristic of Austin because he didn't have much control over his leaving, but didn't really complain about it either. He was a good sport, through and through.

Yau-Jess

Christina Aguilera ~ Fighter


This song definitely reminds me of Jess not only in this game, but just overall. I feel like she's someone who doesn't back down, and will always fight for what she believes in. She takes her experiences and turns them into strength, which is something I really respect in a person. This probably looks like crazy brown-nosing, but considering we all know I'm not getting her vote that'd be pretty pointless. Anyway, Yau-Jess was a fighter in this game, and we all know that.

Tracy

Mariah Carey ~ 100%


I think this song is representative of your efforts in this game Tracy. You gave everything 100% and it showed. Plus, Mariah Carey is my favorite musician of all time, so I hope that shows how much our alliance meant to me!

Heidi

Queen ~ You're My Best Friend


This song is perfect for our relationship, because I think more than anything else our friendship grew in this game. Heidi was also there for me when I needed her most, to tell me to play the idol, and then not to play it. I really owe her for that one, and I wish I could have showed her by taking her to the final 2.

[Parvati Shallow]

Pimpthony Robinson: What exactly would "balls to the wall" have constituted in that scenario? Because everybody was pretty damn set on voting YOU off at the nearest available opportunity, and I told them point blank I wasn't going to do that because I thought taking out Yau was a much better move.

Nov 10, 2012 11:03:18 GMT -5 DD said:

Before I delve into these good ol' jams, I would like to address this:

I only ever targetted people who I'd heard were planning on voting for me. Did I make a mistake on that front? Maybe. Again, if I did, it's because people were lying to me, and presenting a logical and rational case that I had no good reason not to believe.

I think you gave me a lot of shit for voting you out (and maybe that was you just fulfilling your bitch niche (internal rhyme ftw)) when I was just employing the same strategy you enlisted here.

That was not "a lot" of shit. Believe me, when I give you a lot of shit, there won't be any "think" about it. You will know that you have been given a lot of shit.

Besides, I don't even know how you can argue the same thing. Because I never told anybody I would vote for you, barring the two or three people I told that I wanted you at the merge because I knew Brenda had a crosstribe with you. After that split up, I had no damn reason to go after you, and I was planning on going to the end with you and even letting you bring your GTI peons along for the ride if that was what you wanted - which I TOLD you, repeatedly. What I'm guessing happened is that someone told you I was going after you, and you just straight up believed it without bothering to check the facts, or stop and take a second to realize that if literally everybody else was gunning for me, who the fuck was I supposed to be working with against you? Obviously they'd all chosen you over me, so I don't really buy that argument. Not to mention, when you actually were getting votes, I was the one who immediately went to you and warned you ahead of time, and told you why. If that wasn't enough to earn your trust, then I dunno what the hell would have.

[Parvati Shallow]

Also, I'm in the middle of the world's most idiotic prosody class. Internal rhyme, along with minimal pause, assonance, emphasis, and all of their kin can go die in a fire of cancer.

[DD]

I didn't know who you'd have worked with, but I guess I just couldn't believe you would take me to the end. I think you could have gotten the votes for me had we gotten close enough. That's not to say that you would have, of course.

So no, I don't just believe things without batting an eye, and I hope you would know that.

[Pimpthony Robinson]

Nov 10, 2012 18:41:53 GMT -5 Parvati Shallow said:

Pimpthony Robinson: What exactly would "balls to the wall" have constituted in that scenario? Because everybody was pretty damn set on voting YOU off at the nearest available opportunity, and I told them point blank I wasn't going to do that because I thought taking out Yau was a much better move.

We were at the Final 10, so the least we could have tried at that time was to vote with what was left of our alliance: you/Chelsea/Michelle/Misty/me. That's five out of ten votes, and well, we didn't have items, but one can always try, hope for a tie perhaps or try to explore another option (ie. getting Austin to vote with us). It would have been very tough, but that's what I was initially thinking that round. Had I not been immune, then I still would have been thinking along those lines, and I don't think any of the five I just mentioned were set on voting me out. I don't think Yau/Tracy/Austin were set on voting me out either based on what they told me at least, though I may be wrong of course.

You had made new alliances and friendships though, I understand that, and you couldn't really go balls to the wall to save Chelsea without turning on them. By the same token, I couldn't make a move against Yau when I found out he had not been playing me at all.

[Pimpthony Robinson]

Ok finally my answer to your question. Not sure if all the vids work in the US/Canada.

Brenda: Mercury Rev ~ Goddess on a highway

Brenda came up with the tribe name Driegodinne, meaning Three Goddesses. She was a goddess, and she had potential to use these goddess powers to make it to the end. Another thing that fits with the lyrics of the song: what her and I had in this game wasn't gonna last, since she was voted out early merge.

Chelsea: Passenger ~ Let her go

While I really wanted to save Chelsea, others let her go. I think down the road they might have paid the price for that and perhaps regretted this decision (in a way what this song is about). This has been my favorite song for a while and got the episode title in the round that Chelsea was voted out; so I think posting the song here for her is very fitting.

Parvati: Adele ~ Rumor has it

The game, your game, our game, has been influenced by rumors. A lot of things were being said about Brenda, causing you to go after her. Some of these rumors were true, some were not. If anything, I understand that you made a decision you thought was best for you at that time based on these rumors.

Misty: Jessie J ~ Domino

This song is very fierce and fun, just like Misty. I think the title and "taking her down" like a domino is also very fitting, since our alliance basically collapsed like dominoes. Her elimination was kind of expected as she was the next in line. Even though the outcome might have looked predictable, the round she left was a messy and exciting one, since Misty gave it a great fight.

Austin: Ben Howard - Keep your head up

Austin's elimination left a bitter taste, not just with him, but with many people in this game. His positive comments have helped me in the game, and now I hope that he will think about the positive things this game has brought, keep his head up, and be proud of the game that he played.

Yau-Jess: Dia Frampton & Blake Shelton ~ I will

Yau has been a great friend and ally for me, and no matter what I did she's always supported me and has always had my back. This song is about such unconditional support and friendship.

Tracy: Kelly Clarkson ~ Stronger (what doesn't kill you)

Nothing could really stop Tracy until that messed up Final 4. She was in a tribe where she felt on the outs, her closest ally got voted out, and it left her in a pretty miserable position. It didn't bring her down though; it made her stronger and she fought hard to get to the end.

Heidi: Matchbox 20 ~ These Hard Times

I think Heidi has known some hard times in this game. Pre-merge she felt very much on the outs, then was sent to redemption and had to fight her way back. Then towards the end of the merge I can imagine she must have had a hard time choosing between DD, Tracy, Yau when it was inevitable that one of them had to go.